So, it’s been almost 6 weeks since my last update. Man how time flies these days! So, cutting to the chase I decided to abandon my last Exante stint. It was the conference that was on my find. I was finding it incredibly difficult to focus on the task at hand. Also, I had no clear plan of attack. It was all a bit ‘let’s play it by ear’ and that wasn’t working for me. The good news is that I’m no heavier than I was at the beginning of September. Certainly a plus point but I’m not ready to give up on the packs just yet. You know what they say, ‘Fail to plan, Plan to fail’ so I’ve committed myself (and about 250 quid) to a solid 100% 8 week stint on Exante. Today is day 2 and I’m feeling pretty positive to be honest. An abstinence programme is so hard to do anyway that I think you have to be mentally in the right place to start. I don’t think I was before the conference but, now that is out of the way I feel much more comfortable with the whole thing. I’m out of the closet with it this time too. I’m just getting my head down and getting on with it. I need to get some weight off as I was the weight I am now AFTER last Christmas last year. God knows what I’d be after this Christmas this year if I don’t do something about it.
So this is essentially going to be the 3rd time that I’ve gone for it. I don’t count September as that was really a non starter. There was a month stint earlier this year (in which I lost 2 stone) and now this time. When I read back on this blog it really puts into perspective how much I’ve struggled to maintain my weight in the last 2 years. It’s incredibly difficult. At least, it is for me. Looking back at all my stats the other day though I was offered a small glimmer of hope. There was a time there (towards mid 2009) that I genuinely maintained at a healthy weight for a good couple of months. I know in the grand scheme of things that isn’t particularly long but it proves a point that it can be done. I shall be examining that food diary etc in much more details over the coming weeks that’s for sure.
Target this time are not set in stone. I’ll be eating at a function on the 9th of December so it’s not quite 8 weeks but very close. It that time I’d love to shift 3 stone. Past performance tells me it’s doable but will be tight. A 3 stone loss will see me comfortably back into the 14s which is ideally where I’d like to stay. 15 stone 7lbs as a maximum.
So what else is there to say at this point? Not much I guess. I’m giving myself another chance (again) but, what’s the alternative? Spiral out of control? Put even more weight back on? I have half a wardrobe full of clothes to get back into and I know it can be done. Having another go is right thing to do. I’m convinced of that. I’ve done it before. I can do it again.
This is like my own little trilogy. I think it was George Lucas who said all trilogies follow the same pattern. In the first act, you introduce the characters and everything ends well. In the second act you put them the in worst situation so it seems they’re never going to get out. In the third Act, they get out!
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